I've never been a fan of going to sleep. The only thing worse than going to sleep at night is waking up in the morning. Our baby girl has been a great sleeper for the most part, but she does have her moments. For the past several days she has been waking up all through the night. She usually goes right back to sleep when she gets fed or gets her pacifier back, but it still means your sleep is always interrupted. I know my wife has been tired because she is the one who takes care of the feeding duties at night. I was doing okay until the end of last week. The waking baby combined with my own sleep difficulties caused me to basically be a zombie at work last Thursday and Friday. I was looking forward to the weekend to catch back up... unfortunately that didn't happen. I want to get to bed early so bad but I just can't do it, especially on the weekend. I was dreading this morning, but I feel decent so far. Maybe the massive amount of coffee I had this morning is the only thing keeping me going.
Even though I didn't get as much sleep as I would have liked we had a good weekend. On Sunday morning we got ready and went to church. We have been trying out a new church the last several weeks. Amelia had been going to service with us and just sitting on our laps. She had been doing great, but this week we decided to finally try out the nursery. We (or at least me) have the first-time parent syndrome where we don't want to leave her with "strangers". I get myself all nervous about it. However, it was time to get over it and let her play in the nursery. I handled it better than I thought I would, though I was checking my phone every couple minutes for a text message from the woman who was watching her. A couple times I thought about her crying and us not being there, but those moments didn't last long. There is a Sunday school class right after church for our age group that we've wanted to check out. When the service was over we immediately headed to the nursery to check on our baby and based on that we would decide if we were going to go this week. The woman's husband had showed up to help her and when we got there he was holding Amelia in the rocking chair and she was fast asleep on his lap. She seemed pretty comfy so we decided to go to Sunday school. We got back an hour later and she was awake and fine, but pretty excited to see her mommy. It was a small victory for us to leave her, hopefully I will continue to get better. I've never thought I would be an over-bearing parent, and for the most part I am not. It is just hard to believe how much I love that little girl. I don't ever want anything bad to happen to her... even though she does make me sleepy and grumpy sometimes.
